This post was written a couple of weeks ago but I just felt moved to share it.
Yesterday morning I took Baby our cockapoo for a walk in the morning while the children were at school. The day before Baby got a hair cut and it became obvious that Lilly has been sneaking him food which has lead to him gaining some weight. Which means I can no longer procrastinate about working out and little did I know that 45 minute walk would turn into a heart walk.
For the last 307 days, (I’m not counting today) I have been living on unblinded faith that God will restore and heal this family. This past year has been a bigger trail on me then most years. I thought it was going to be the year that this blog finally starts making it cause I could give it the attention it needed. I thought this year was the year to start mentoring some ladies and possibly writing that book. For the first time during mother hood my children were both attending school and I could maybe get some breathing room.
Truthfully reality has sucked. The PICU visit triggered a huge set back and we are still struggling up what seems the slippery slope to baseline. A total 308 days behind our rehab plan from the orthopaedic surgery in Nov 2016. Some weeks it feels like I care for a baby again instead of a 9 year old. My PTSD recovery has also been delayed.
It’s been 108 days since I sat down and actually wrote something. For me this is odd. I love to write but when you have no words it’s easier to be silent. It seems for the last two weeks my bible has opened to Ecclesiastes 3:7 every time I sit down with it. I feel like God is telling me this season is coming to an end and a new one is about to start.
At the same time I have became addicted to Podcast. I like to load up my phone with them and listen to them on my walks or just cleaning the house. Right now I am listening to one of my favourite writer’s Heidi St. John from The Busy Mom. I started following her a few years ago because of the foundation she talks about raising children in God.
Every time I tune in to her I get inspired as mom.
Her recent podcast have been talking about Spiritual Warfare and it hit home hard. Through out this year we have been walking through a lot of spiritual warfare. Having a sick child the Satin can use it against you. It seems every-time I can think of moving forward then something new pops up. Also with so many set backs it’s easy for the Satin to attack my mind. Those negative thoughts can run wild. But I am making some changes in my life to help me get past this road block.
In this season I have stumbled quiet a lot but I have kept unblinded faith. I don’t know what the next season will bring but I chose to believe in God’s awesomeness. I don’t know if blogging is in my future but I felt moved to publish this post. Until next time keep faith my friends.